Do you ever feel frustrated with your life? Like you should be doing something else? Anything else?
Sometimes, okay most of the time for me anyway, it feels like I need to be doing something more with my life. I left my job about 7 years ago and stay home with my 2 boys. I love them dearly, but I feel like I'm treading water.
That sinking feeling was part of the reason I started blogging. First it was ebay. I thought selling on ebay could be a potential business. Actually, that was hubs' idea. Buying cheap and selling for a profit didn't turn out to be something I really enjoyed.
Then I had babies. Oh, how I wanted those babies! After I had them, I started to panic. Can I do this? Day in, day out? Me and the boys? Just us. All day. Every day.
Some women are cut out to be mothers. That's their full-time job and they love it and they're great at it. They thrive raising children. They love the diapers, cooking, cleaning, organizing, playdates. Me . . . come to find, not so much.
During my 2nd pregnancy, I took to the blogosphere. I enjoy it, but I'm not thriving at it. I've always questioned what it is I want - what do I want to do. I never knew and suppose I still don't. I feel stuck in a rut. I listen and see the things other moms are doing and wonder what my "thing" is. I hope I find it soon. My life is already pretty much half over.
I wish you luck in finding "it". I think we all get lost sometimes, even if we appear not to on the outside!
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I'm not sure we are ever meant to find our "thing". Maybe part of life is continuously searching for a new "thing"...a part of growing and changing and becoming a better person. Just when you think you've figured your thing out, life does a little flip and you realize you need to start moving towards something bigger and better.
ReplyDeleteI just don't have time to create the type of blog I really want.
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