Every now and again, I realize that I'm one of those moms who has no control over her children. It literally brings me to tears.
I am a stay-at-home mom of 2 boys under 5 who thinks she can handle it all. Obviously, I can't. Which brings me to my latest debacle - taking both children to the doctor's office. I know some of you moms can relate and are already nodding in agreement when I say "nightmare."
My 4 year old has some allergy-related issues that I need to see several specialists for on a somewhat frequent basis. Since all of these appointments are during the day, I drag the 1 year old along with us. I don't have a babysitter (I know, I know), my husband is at work all day, and my parents are up there in age so they can't possibly handle the 1 year old (aka demon seed).
I've been taking the 1 year old along with us for office visits since he was born, and it's gotten increasingly worse. I am drained and worn out by the time I get back in the car to go home. He's all over the place. He's yelling. He's screaming when he's told "no." Today, while in the pulmonologist's office, he pulled off and broke a vertical blind. One word for you all - MORTIFIED!
I can't believe I'm this mom. I can't believe I have children who break things and yell and run around like wild animals. By no means am I a pushover. Actually, many think quite the opposite. But I've seen too many news reports where moms have their children taken away for hitting, smacking or using any other disciplinary action in public (which I personally think is b.s. - please for the love of God do not tell me how to raise my child and then take that child away when I'm trying to raise him.) But I digress . . .
I can't remove my misbehaving 1 year old from the situation because I'm in a doctor's office with my 4 year old. Under any other circumstance, we'd be gone. I don't have anywhere else to bring him and I just wish he would behave. I love my children and how spirited they are, but I wish they could reign it in at times. Oh, and by the way, I have no idea what the pulmonologist said about the 4 year old because the 1 year old was trying to flip upside down out of my arms. Yup, one of those moms . . .